My Juliet

My daughter in law and son have a new baby girl.  She is Juliet Louise and she's brought a breath of fresh air to my life.
Why did it take me 3 months to write this well it's been hard for me to work through all the emotions that came with her birth.  She has made me confront my emotions about the lose of my mom and it's been hard.

All babies relax me but this little being is so calming she can almost put you to sleep.  She is an angel in disguise.  She is the perfect baby because she has never had some of the ailments some babies get and she has a sweet disposition.

I was never blessed with a baby girl but now I feel like I have better.  A granddaughter is a promise for the future.  Brittany hopefully never have any of the lonliness I get when I don't have a female around me.  I love my boys but lets face it they don't think like me.  I'm lucky to have Rachel and Brittany because they are great daughter in laws.  Rachel always thinks of me and comes by even when she doesn't need to.  Brittany supplies me with endless glimpses of her little babies.

Juliet will bring added happiness to all those who cross her path.  She should have been named joy because that what she brings to my life.

I have no doubt she is going to give little JoJo a run for his money but in the end he will thank god for little girls.  His sister will be there to help him make sense of life.

THANK HEAVEN FOR LITTLE GIRLS
Each time I see a little girl
Of five or six or seven
I can't resist a joyous urge
To smile and say
Thank heaven for little girls
For little girls get
Bigger every day
Thank heaven for little girls
They grow up in 
The most delightful way.
Those little eyes 
So helpless and appealing
When they were flashing
Send you crashing
Through the ceiling
Thank heaven for little girls
Thank heaven for them all
No matter where,
No matter who
Without them
What would little boys do
Thank heaven
Thank heaven for little girls. 

Thanks Joe and Brittany for giving this family our future .... 

 I think we are all in for a ride...... 

A loving and grateful grandma!

What Do You Love For Free

Last week I found myself feeling sorry that we don't have a lot of money and then again the wow moment.

I started to think of things that I love that cost nothing and I found I was grateful for them:

• I love a large ceramic mug filled with Dunkin Donuts coffee just the right color and sweetness.  I absolutely love the feel of that mug and the smell first thing in the morning.
• Love the sight of a male cardinal in the trees.
• Love to see the grass and trees turning green in the spring.
• Love the smell of freshly cut grass.
• Love the sound of a baby laughing.
• Love the very sight of one of my grandson's smiling from my computer when I'm feeling down.
• Love the sight of a butterfly on a quiet afternoon from my porch.
• Love the feel of freshly cleaned sheets and blankets.
• Love the cool feel of cold sheets on a winter day and then the warmth when you pull up the covers.
• Love waking up in the morning to see that I have 3 hrs before I have to get up.
• Love the smell of a brand new car.
• Love floating in my pool on a hot summer day and just watching the clouds above me moving.
• Love sitting on my porch and just watching people walking by my house.
• Love the feel of my fleece blanket on a cold evening in the winter
•  Love the memory of my mom's smile and how much I loved her. 

There are many more.  My point is that when life seems too heavy to handle get a piece of paper and start writing the things you love.  You will find so much to be grateful for and hopefully like me you'll realize that it's not how much money we have , it's the love we have from others and the beauty that is for all of us for FREE!

Enjoy life as long as you are above ground it's a good day!

Much Love
Sharon

Who wouldn't feel good looking at that face.  This is what god gave us the little child just enjoying what is out there for all.

Harry's Law

Harry's Law is a brand new show.  Yep it's another lawyer show but it stops there.  This is an unexpected joy to watch.

It takes a lot to surprise me but the very beginning of this show was a huge surprise.  I found myself laughing out loud and enjoying every moment of the Pilot.

Kathy Bates is a wonderful actress who can deliver a straight line and make it funny better than almost anybody out there.  I have missed Boston Legal since it went off the air but I find that I can't wait to see Harry's Law next week.

I have watched the pilot 4 times and every time I enjoy it more.

I hope NBC knows what a wonderful new hit they have on their hands and gives this show time to find the audience they deserve. 

 If you haven't seen it yet then go to the NBC website and watch.

Enjoy

Sharon

OWN Network

I have been watching the new OWN Network and thought well why not give the Gayle King show a try. 

Maybe I don't understand what it is to take a radio show to a live TV show but it just flat out seemed very unprofessional to me.  For instance when Gayle wants to show a clip she asks the guy in the back for the clip number.  Example:  Roll clip number 28 please.  Wouldn't it be better to just have the guy have the list of clips in order and say roll the clip?  You could see the production people coming out to rearrange the show furniture.  Ok enough of that. 

Gayle herself seemed flat to me.  I was not involved with her like I have been Oprah.  Now maybe it's unfair to compare the two but lets face it Gayle has been around long enough to be able to put on a high quality show.

I do hope they get better with time but for me it is just not up to the standards we've come to expect of Oprah and this Network.

What I absolutely love love love is Season 25: Oprah Behind the Scenes.  This show is a full hour of everything that it takes to get the episodes of The Oprah Show up and running.  I was mesmerized and can't wait for the next installment.  I was very surprised to see that Oprah has not edited in order to just make herself look great.  She is of course human like the rest of us and she allows us to see into her universe. 

I have come away from that show with a new found respect for the production teams and directors that make up these shows.  I hope this doesn't end with this season.  Maybe she can do this on other show?:

Well that's my review for today for what it's worth.  I do hope to see more from this fledgling network.

Oprah I'd love to see a show with Maria Shriver anything in the works?

Much Love
Sharon

 

Recognize The Love

As parents we have our children and we sacrifice for them.  We believe in our kids and try to teach them as best we can.  Parents are like every other human they are flawed and make mistakes.  In my case I try to bring truth to my kids and tell the truth about myself.  I also have believed that I am a good communicator.  Ha Ha

In most cases that is true but over the past few months I have not been practicing what I preach.  I have not always looked at discussions I've had with my boys with a trully open mind.  My sons can talk to me about everything and if you have been in my house when my boys were growing up you can attest that I have never had limits on what we can talk about.  It gets a little wild sometimes. 

I have always been the parent and worried about them.  In this past year I have seen a difference in my oldest son.  My son's have always accepted that I am a big woman but they are not happy about it.  They would love for me to lose the weight.  They have been pretty vocal about it never in a really bad way but I have not always taken the discussions too well and hurt feelings were generally at the end of these discussions.  Why?  Well folks the great communicator (me) really wasn't doing that.  I was shutting down when the people I love the most wanted to discuss my health and my life expectancy.  You see communication is a two way street and I was practicing only one part of it, the talking not the listening. 

I didn't want my 20 something children nagging me or telling me what to do.  I guess I felt that they were trying to tell me what to do and I balked at even having open discussions about it.  I would pull the walls up and not hear what they were saying.

Life is a funny thing as the boys grew they actually listened to me and my oldest son is becoming quite the intelligent insightful adult.  You see I taught my kids to not only care about the people in their family but to do things for them.  We always give our opinions to each other.  We tell the truth when it's needed.

Today he basically said the same thing to me that he'd always said, but unlike the past I heard it as he trully meant it not as an attack at all but a plea from someone who loves their mother so much.  A man who does not want the final act of my life to be one of bitterness or regret.  My boy was not worried about himself no he was worried that my worst fear would come true if I didn't do something to stop it.  He has tried to formulate a solution not only a plan but he put money behind it and with all his military strategy he planned this so that this 54 year old could not find an excuse.

What a gift as a mother to be fortunate enough to see the love your child feels as a tangible thing.  I'm lucky that god allows me to see beyond my own poor self image and to see what is possible.  I got to cut through the mother son crap and was able to see only the love.  I hope I do better in the future in the communication area so that I don't allow my ego to stand in the way of receiving the message.

I don't know that I'm strong enough to fight over 45 years of self abuse but I'm going to try to do this.  Not only for my kids but so that when my final act comes to a close I can leave this world as I came into it with a light step and a huge voice.

I hope I get to have many more opportunities to feel the pride and accomplishment I felt today watching the my little boy turn into a big hearted loving man.  It's wonderful to watch your children grow up and I'm very lucky to have these men in my life.


Well done son you are on your way to becoming a truly phenomenal man.  You were my miracle all those years ago and you still are.

Much Love

Mom

Resolution 2011 Stay Positive

In years past my New Years Resolution has been to lose weight or eat less chocolate or travel.  All of which I inevitably break.  This year I thought about it long and hard.

My resolution this year is to stay positive in order to manifest great things in my life.  Also, lets face it staying positive leads to smiling more, feeling happier and more tolerance for others.

I know I've never been a really positive person.  Oh I appear so on the outside, you know the Sharon the world see's but inside my mind I tend to go to the negative side of things.  So staying positive has not been as easy as I thought this simple resolution would be.  It's a struggle almost every minute because our thoughts run throughout the day.  I'm now doing more examination of my thoughts and I'm finding I veer off quite often.  It is exhausting because as a negative thought comes in I stop myself and try to turn it around.  Thinking is taking longer ha ha.

This resolution hard as it may be may be one that will teach me the most.  It's funny because when you're positive the world does not seem to be such a scary place.  All things seem possible.

This is one resolution I intend to keep.  I am human so I may fall off the Positivo (new word made it up) wagon but I'll try to stay on it and make it a part of my very existence.

What is your resolution?

Much Love

Sharon

A New Way Of Decision Making

At my age I've come to realize that when our lives are the busiest we are the least available to those around us. 

When I was working and raising my boys I was busy all the time.  Trying to make it to work and do a 150% rather than 100%.  To be the best in the field I had chosen and make the most money I could.  To be the best mother I could be.  Which in my case meant making time when the boys were little to put my butt into therapy to figure out how to be a better me so that they could have the best mom I could be.  Taking care of others in my life that needed me. 

Then it happens you reliase that over 35 years have past and you don't remember a lot of what went on.  You were not mindful in some of those moments.  Oh I have plenty of memories that's not what I'm talking about.  It's the moments in life when changes occur.  The big ah ha moments when you change as a human.  Most of the time as we are on the train of life those moments go by swiftly and we don't always notice the moment we made a momentous decision that changed our life.  Then you're down a different road and you start to realize things have changed.

I'm out of work.  My life has slowed down enough to where I'm now confronted with some life changes and decisions that I need to make.  This time though is different because I'm not busy and I have the time to reflect on how many times this has happened and perhaps I'll see why it's happened.  It's a different way of making a decision.  To really analyze a situation and not jump to the first solution.  To try to see the bigger picture knowing that not all is revealed as we go through this life.  There are some things we only get to see in hind sight. 

I've also realized that there are very few decisions made in my life that I haven't made based on how it will affect my kids.  I now realize that they are grown and I have to start making decisions based on "what works for me".  (Got that from the Judds show on Oprah thanks Op).  So I sit here in the dark trying to break my life into segments and look at it from a higher level.  As if I was way up looking down at my life.  Maybe if I take a bit of time I'll figure out what I really want.  Then a decision will be easy.

As most mom's know over the years you forget to think of yourself and your spouse.  It's all about the kids then one day you realize that it's now gone full circle and you must start being present in your own life for yourself. 

I'm not sure where this will all take me, but I know for sure that whatever choices I make will at the very least have been well thought out.  We must always look at what did work and more importantly what did not work in order to make a better choice. 

I need to sleep on all of this......

Much Love
Sharon